Getting anxious.   4 comments

A common theme in my life is anxiety and worry…I’m pretty sure you can tell by reading some of my posts 😉

Today’s news is all about rising oil prices, falling housing prices, and everything in between. I even heard that it will cost approximately $240,000 to send one child to a public university in 2030.  WTH.  I may throw up.

If you know me, you’ll understand that one of my current obsessions is the price of gas.  I get absolutely PISSED every time I pass a gas station and the price is higher.  I can’t stand it.  I want to get out of my car and throw a large rock at the gas station.  If I ever meet the CEO of BP, I may even throw a rock at him.

I work close to 45 minutes from my home, so I spend a lot of money in gas every month.  It is nearly impossible to try and save money for college or pay off revolving debt when we have to continue to shell out more money each week to fill up our cars.  On top of this, my husband and I are considering a mini-van or SUV in the future, but I have no idea how we’ll be able to fill it up.  My poor husband has to listen to me bitch about the price of gas on a weekly basis.  I feel for him and babe, I’m sorry.  I know that it’s a fixed cost and we have to deal with it.  I understand that it rises due to issues like unrest in the Middle East, market speculators, etc.  I hear all that but I still hate it.  I can still be pissed about it.  I know that my little self being pissed about the situation will not change a thing, but I need to hate it.

I’m always anxious about money….about how much debt we have, about the fact that we do not have much savings, about the fact if either my husband or I lose our job, we are screwed.  I’ve been anxious about money all my life, but it’s even worse now that we have two little fellas who depend on us to provide for them.

I have a plan to get my husband and I out of some of our debt in a couple of years.  If you have more revolving debt than you’d care to mention, check out how to snowball and pay your debt down.  I used a snowball calculator at Whats The Cost.  It’s free and if you set up an account (which is basically your email address), you can save our snowballs and download a csv file so you can save it.  I’ve never received spam or junk mail from them by giving them my email address.  I’m sure there are other snowball websites out there, but this is the first one I found and so far so good.

On another note, I’m anxious about heading back to work in a week and a half.  I’m going to miss my boys so much.  I’ve bonded with my older son and we share breakfast every day.  I’m going to miss my breakfast buddy.  My little baby is a wonderful snuggler, and I’m going to miss our snuggle time during the day.  I’ll be living for the weekends for sure!

My job is great but I’m going back to a mess.  I manage a team of individuals who market a product, and every year for the past four years, my team has exceeded our goals.  This year has been completely different, and my team has missed the mark by a lot.  I used to be in their position, so I know how to do the job and do it well, and I plan to get back in the office and get back to basics with them.  The first time I went out on maternity leave they did just fine, met their goals and made me proud.  Collectively, they were not doing well as a team before I had my second son, and unfortunately have not really recovered while I’ve been out on leave.  So, in addition to getting into the groove of being a working mom of 2, I have to go back and re-train many of my team members on how to do their jobs…or clean house I suppose…which I do not want to do.  Most of my team members are young and are also like my second set of children.  I can’t really remember a day where one of them didn’t come in my office and shut the door to talk about another person or a personal problem of their own.  I love that they are comfortable with me and want my help, but it can be exhausting.  At the end of the day though, thank the good Lord I have a job.  I am lucky and I do realize that.

So, gas prices and my job…two things that are making me anxious today.  But, I’ll deal with it.  That’s what us moms do.  We have our own problems and things that bug us, but our main job is to take care of our little ones and shelter them from the problems facing us and the rest of the world, and that’s what I’m going to do.

Any advice on how a busy, working mom can manage her anxiety would be awesome!

Oh, and my toddler has a horrible case of diaper rash…he evidently pooed two nights ago in the middle of the night and woke up with the reddest booty we’ve ever seen.  We’ve been slathering his little butt with as much Balmex as we can get on it, but it’s not that much better.  We’ve sworn by Balmex with both of our children, but haven’t had to deal a case of diaper rash as bad as this yet.  If you have any secrets that I am not aware of, please send them my way!

Have a great day, and remember to take a few minutes for yourself today!

All the best,
Someone’s mom


4 responses to “Getting anxious.

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  1. I cannot believe how expensive college is! My alma mater was recently rated “best value” by US N&WR…at $54K/yr!!!

    I always feel some sympathy for moms who have to go back to work after maternity leave. It must be tough to leave the little ones behind…especially if you’re facing a mess! Good luck getting back into the swing of things.

  2. That’s crazy. My alma mater was about $6000 per semester…and I thought THAT was ridiculous. Fingers crossed my kids get some scholarships…and learn to appreciate student loans and paying their own way 😉

  3. It IS ridiculous! If we can afford to send our kid to school, we certainly will, but otherwise I agree with you: scholarships and student loans! I don’t actually think it’s a parent’s job to pay for college. Isn’t debt the real American dream anyway?

  4. Absolutely! I am with you and agree it’s not the parents’ job. I’ve seen friends and family be “lucky” enough to get their college educations paid for (AND get new cars from their parents while in college!!!) and drop/fail out…leaving themselves AND their parents in debt…without a degree….but with a fancy new car! 😉

    When I’m done paying my student loans off in a hundred years, I’ll have paid my entire way through school…and I worked too. I appreciate it that much more and I worked hard to make sure I did well so I got my money’s worth. I’m hoping to instill those same values in my kids. Now, if I happen to have a lot of extra money at the time they go to school, I’ll be happy to help out but I still wouldn’t pay their entire way. But based on the way the economy has fluctuated over the past few years, the likelihood of me having extra money in 18 years is looking slim.

    And, if debt’s the real American dream, then I have certainly achieved it!!

    Have a good one!

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